Anxious @@

The exam is just around the corner,
everybody should felt nervous,scared or exciting?
I must said I din"t felt a thing,
I'm just very confuse about how to be a LEADER,
I know that being a LEADER is not a easy job,
but when the ex-co scold me,
I just like,
"WHAT, what do you expect?"
A perfect one or just a BARBIE?
I really don"t know what wrong with me!!!
Why she can done it but I can't?
It's the way I walk,
The way I speak,
or my attitude?
This is just the problem I'm suffering on,
I trying again and again to outsmart this problem,
But in the eye's of her,
I just never tried hard enough rite?
I know it's disappointing to both me and her,
But I've tried as hard as I could,
I hope I can change myself and also change the last thought of her,
I here promise that I'll do it before you leave,
Honestly...I hope
In the other case,
I don't have the mooooood to study,
I'm so going to dead at this kind of situation,
Even thought that everybody keep giving me pressure to kept study study and study,
but I just felt nothing,
nothing at at,
I hate it,
I really want some motif to get to study again,
Agggggrrrrrrrrrrrr....

Irritated

Have you ever felt like,
"Hey I want that also",
but you can"t buy it after a long search?
I meant like SOLD OUT?
What The?
That feels totally not good,
I even hate this kind of situation happen on myself,
How can  it be truth?
It's like the god is playing a game with you,
when you want the book,
the book is SOLD OUT,
but when you don"t want the book,
there's always everywhere you can see,
Seriously?
If this is a game,
I'll be mad,
but sadly it's not  and also it's my life,
This just make me grumpy,
have no feel to do revision on that subject,
Hey?I'm a easily disturb girl,
I can't do revision when I din't have the book,condition,or even the room,
It's not my fault to be like this,
I HATE IT.