Leader?

Oh now after I'm crazy,
I have to be a leader?
I can't play anymore in the school,in the class,in front of the student,
So what still I can do?
Who can teach me now?
I really don't know,
I know that I'm childish,
I'm stupid,I'm crazy and I'm can't speak,
Other than being a leader now,I need 2 be a M.C.
Oh,there just so many problem problem problems,
So I got to face everything by myself now,
because no one can help me......
I'm frustrated,
Can anyone give me some idea???
Alright,
I know I'm a failure,
I can't do anything,I wish I could,but I just can't,
I told myself I can't be despise by other,
I must get 7A in my exam,
I tried to study hard,
Everything just makes me felt down,
I don't feel like doing anything,
just sleep and watch tv,
I can't fight for my target,
I just can't,
and now other than studies,
I need 2 be a good leader of a group?society?or Kadet?
Funny right?
a 15 years old take over a group,
Yup...I also think it's funny,
I rather that I'm not the 1,
No need to take care of every thing and become like a mad girl
SO WHAT?
WHO CARES?
I KNOW NOBODY CARES,
Fine that's it,
I'm done here.

Lost

Something is just so not right here,
I'm depressed,I'm sad,I'm lonely,
I can't even felt my heart beat,
I'm totally lost,
I can spend 3/4 of my time sleeping and the other 1/4 watching TV,
And don't even felt that my life is boring,
I don't know what to said,what to do,
I can't even focus  to study for my PMR exam that will be held about 1 month after,
I'm CRAZY,
I talk to my dog,
I walk alone and start singing my own song,
Oh come on?
What is wrong about me?
Am I alright?
Oh god bless me,
First, I'm ugly,
Second, I'm crazy,
Third, I'm Stupid,
Fine, everything just land on me,
How can I do this?
How can I cure myself?
Do I need a mental doctor?
Or should I said AM I CRAZY?
Fine I admit it,
I felt like all my friends don't like me,
So what I'm not good enough,
Everyone have defect,
It's not just me that is not perfect,
I felt like I'm losing myself,
I don't even know are I still the same?
I'm sad when they said all my bad things out,
Although it's the truth,
And I'm always saying I'm alright,I'm fine,
Or sometimes I'm uninvited,
I'll just said I'm better without it,just go by yourself,
but in the heart I'm sad,
I cry in my bed at night,
I even can't sleep while I think about how stupid I am,
All the things I have done,
I hoped my life is more awesome than others,
but I'm just a normal girl that everybody forget,
Just face it,
You are not getting the life you want,
JUST FACE IT,
YOU ARE NOT WORTH THE WORLD TO CHANGE BECAUSE OF YOU,
YOU ARE NOTHING!!!!