REGRET

I know I'm not the perfect 1 in the world,
I know...
everybody hates me,
but what can I do,
I can't say no in my life,
I can't say "I hate it",
I can't even says "I don't like it",
but who knows
I regret for everything I have done,
I regret 2 be in this world,
I regret 2 live here,
I regret for knowing them,
I regret ...
but nobody know how I'm feeling,
Nobody wants 2 know how my life goes on,
Nobody knows how I desire 2 have someone I can talk with,
n who knows how many times I have cried in my pillow,
WHO KNOWS?

Deeply hurted

I Felt it,
I don't know it's juz me or something,
I felt like I've been hated by many ppl,
this year,
sitting in the class room,
seeing the classmate around me,
I juz felt like I'm not supposed 2 be there,
all my classmates playing in group,
only me,
juz sitting at the corner of the classroom,
been ignore by everybody,
like I din't exist,
they hurts me everyday,
by saying satirize word,
I've been scolded by them in group,
calling me a rubbish,
saying my parent's are dead,
BELIEVE　ＭＥ　 It doesn't felt gud,
I tolerate them once and once again,
but they keep doing them same thing,
at the time...I keep telling myself,
'I can't cry,I can't...if I cry...they will be even happier，
I can't let them succeed ......'
my heart...
It hurts more than I tough,
honesty...
nobody like 2 be hurt like this,
I know I'm not a pretty girl,
not popular,don't have much friends,
but I'm also a ppl,
I also have parent's that raised me,
I also will felt hurt by them,
so I really hope they can stop it......

Cut HAIR jor...

Yerr...very hate the teacher lol...
she wanna cut my hair o,
she said if i still don't go cut my hair,
she will cut it for me on Wednesday,
HATE HER...
she so not reasonable,
I already told her my parents went 2 a trip 2 Macau,
she say i'm giving excuses o,
she is so unfair...she caught the first class 1 their hair is long she use smiley face n talk with them,
but our class the second 1 she use the "BLACK FACE OF GOD" talk with us...
SO UNFAIR...hey STUPID although my class is a bit noisy...
but were still the second class in the school...
so don't be so eccentric...
after cut the hair i felt very... awkward...I think so...

Devil or Angel?

Sometimes I  juz don't know whether I'm an ANGEL or DEVIL?

It's so complicated...

Maybe a few month's ago someone purpose 2 me,
that's my first time that someone purpose 2 me,
i felt so...
I rejected him because I felt complicated,
his in the same schulz with me in primary schulz but were not in the same class,
I can even say we juz know each other exist in the schulz,
Last year I still din't transfer 2 Chan Wa branch,
but last year wasn't a gud year for me also,
this year I juz transfer 2 branch and OMG i'm in the noisiest class in the schulz,
n also same class as him...at start were not so close 1,
but after the chat we had on FB,
we get close n someday he juz msg me and say I love u....
after that...i juz ignoring him n try 2 not be so close with him,
but lately he told me n say I don't like you anymore,
I like another girl already,
suddenly...i juz felt like nothing...
the feeling is hard 2 describe tough,
the reason that i rejected him because I can't confirm my feeling,
duh..i'm the first time 2 have somebody purpose 2 me...
I have no confidence in the relationship also,
because i and him are also a Sagittarius,
2 Sagittarius r not suppose 2 be together,
n now I'm back with my lonely life,
I always ask myself...WHAT IS LOVE?
WHO WILL BE THE 1 FOR ME?
CAN I ACCEPT HIM?
DO I LIKE HIM?
I juz felt so foolish,
sometimes i juz felt like disappearing in their lifes,
run away 2 another country n start a new life,
but can i really do it?
IT'S JUZ SO COMPLICATED...arg