Lost

Something is just so not right here,
I'm depressed,I'm sad,I'm lonely,
I can't even felt my heart beat,
I'm totally lost,
I can spend 3/4 of my time sleeping and the other 1/4 watching TV,
And don't even felt that my life is boring,
I don't know what to said,what to do,
I can't even focus  to study for my PMR exam that will be held about 1 month after,
I'm CRAZY,
I talk to my dog,
I walk alone and start singing my own song,
Oh come on?
What is wrong about me?
Am I alright?
Oh god bless me,
First, I'm ugly,
Second, I'm crazy,
Third, I'm Stupid,
Fine, everything just land on me,
How can I do this?
How can I cure myself?
Do I need a mental doctor?
Or should I said AM I CRAZY?
Fine I admit it,
I felt like all my friends don't like me,
So what I'm not good enough,
Everyone have defect,
It's not just me that is not perfect,
I felt like I'm losing myself,
I don't even know are I still the same?
I'm sad when they said all my bad things out,
Although it's the truth,
And I'm always saying I'm alright,I'm fine,
Or sometimes I'm uninvited,
I'll just said I'm better without it,just go by yourself,
but in the heart I'm sad,
I cry in my bed at night,
I even can't sleep while I think about how stupid I am,
All the things I have done,
I hoped my life is more awesome than others,
but I'm just a normal girl that everybody forget,
Just face it,
You are not getting the life you want,
JUST FACE IT,
YOU ARE NOT WORTH THE WORLD TO CHANGE BECAUSE OF YOU,
YOU ARE NOTHING!!!!